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By the way, Eryn, if you see this, I don't hate you. I love you, I just wish you'd understand I need someone irl and I get really paranoid and I have trust issues and I just don't know what to do.. If you saw this would you make a blog post to tell me? Probably won't but I just really want you to know that I don't hate you and I really would love to still keep talking :) I'm really not a bad person

I'm going to have to be strong. I don't know why Eryn left me and didn't even try to talk it out or anything... He just like totally disappeared. :/ School will be a good distraction :)

Journal 2-25-11

Dear Journal,
mia thought that it was supposed to be Daddy's day off today but Daddy was still busies. its okies doe cause Daddy says we gon twain tmrw (: it is still stressed. it freaked out earlier cause the buses were late and made it miss the interview. it has to go back. it was so upset.... and then Asshole hasn't gotten it's stress pills yet.. it was freaking out and crying.. it called Master through tears and he said he would message it through facebook on his phone hours ago and he hasn't so it is just curious as to why. it can't wait to sleep in tomorrow. it can start the writing assignment tomorrow yes but the vibe thing will be difficult.. it's distracting.. mia is so stressed right now.. mia needs Daddy. mia is so excited to be getting Daddy's phone in like a week or less. With dirty pictures of Daddy on it ;) mmm... Daddy is Naughty ;) but his whore is really naughty. Can't wait for the humiliation and training tomorrow. it hopes that it isn't overwelming. Maybe Daddy will help it out a little bit tomorrow with a little relaxation hypnosis. Sat is 2 weeks from tomorrow. Gotta study study study. This girl, from it's modeling class, who is FIFTEEN just got engaged... they were together for what like 4 months? Mia can understand a bit but not at 15. Mia is madly in love with Master though and yes if he proposed at any point even right after reading this mia would never deny that (; ^_^ we gotta get through it's family issues and stress and Daddy working lots together. Gunna hold your hand da whole way thru and it hopes you do da same. Also it has kept it's clothes on in it's room because when it got home it completely freaked out and ate lots of comfort food and was just mentally a mess. it misses and hopes to hear from you soon, Daddy. Luff you, Daddykins. it made 2 dwawings for chu :3 and it will probably uploads dem for you to sees :D!!!!

~Master Eryn's Fuck Toy Slut, mia 

Journal 2-24-11

Dear Journal,
it doesn't know why in the hell Master thinks that mia is ready to go to school with a vibe in. It isn't even ready to wear a skirt without panties again yet. Both thoughts are so scary... it hopes Master will wait on both of these... We will have to train well to get ready for this. This is one of Master's days off. It wonders if he is at his 2 hour exercise class right now.. Master, it won't have time to write the thing you wanted.. it can do it this weekend.. uggh this all so stressful just all the work it has and trying to intertwine all the writing assignment and vibe stuff.. it doesn't even know if it is ready to still do the vibe during homework..sometimes it's really uncomfy and distracting... it starts back on it's other normal pill tomorrow... Maybe can it stay dressed tonight for homework? it has to work a bit on the SAT course and etc... and it's head is about to explode, Master...:( it loves you and it loves the training and everything about the bdsm and our relationship but you must be able to imagine how hard it is during Junior year, Daddy.. it loves you soo much, Daddy.. it really wants to talk tonight and tmrw after school can we please train, Daddy? (:

Please.. it hopes that you can get to it irl soon..

Night.. it hopes Daddy reads the blog comments and long journal blog.. mia is still not feeling da best..

Journal 2-21-11

Dear Journal,
it's emotions are so conflicted right now. Partially because it is on it's period... Uggh... it just needs lots of attention, sexual, emotional and physical.. The first two months it was easier to deal without all of the irl life attention because the smitten puppy love phase but it physically really does need Master in real life. No it won't bail on him. Who the hell would it be bailing on someone who can't spend time with it because he's got two jobs to make money to come here? It's just really thinking and wondering how much money he has now towards the trip here and moving here... Because it really seriously needs him. It's past puppy love and it's full on pure in love. But it's so hard to keep strong sometimes and just always think it will work out like long distance until he has enough money. It really hopes he surprises it and visits soon due to all the work he's been putting in. Like no it wasn't saying it won't hold on to wait until he's here irl, it's just sometimes hard to have the 100 % motivation 24/7. Of course it won't give up, Never.  Right? Master is it's perfect forever Daddy but Daddy it's so so tough with you being so far away. Is this my period talking? Keep in mind this is my journal and i'm venting and not talking  directly to you.. Just thinking... rumbled thoughts.  The not living together cause high school wouldn't be a problem it's just you know, it's tougher sometimes cause we haven't even met irl yet. It has no one to kiss it every morning. Come over for ours and snuggle many days a week like an old relationship. It's not saying at all that we should be like an old relationship it just would love being like that... Master coming over like 3 times a week. Even once a week.. Even once right now would be amazing.. seriously.. it's desperate for every time we talk.. it wants to cry right now.. It really needs to hear your voice.. see your face.. that soothes all it's problems, Master.. oh gosh.. it loves you.. so much.. You have no fucking idea... But it just it hurts when even when you're working all day that sometimes you won't even contact me all day saying hey I love you babe here's your dresscode.. Have a good day etc.. Or atleast update your blog every few days.. once a week.. it's wanted to tell you how much that lack of contact bothers it that you don't bother to even call it for 5 mins during a work day or ask how it is doing.. especially when it has big news.. or the fact that it is going to do good in school to please you and can't even really tell you it's improvements... I mean..Why can't you call me for a few mins on your break when i'm at home? I'd even ask to borrrow someone else's phone and I have a roliana.com acc that I can access at school that you can message me on since I think my phones fully cut.. Like when you work, their is like no communication at all barely.. and it's like 1 cam session every week and a half..Master.. you know it well. You should know by now that a five minute phone call or a blog or something always makes my day.. I mean thats like all I expect.. Is that much? Am I greedy? I don't know.. I hope not.. I'm just needy and you've trained me like this and we used to cam every night.. Remember you used to watch me sleep? I dont feel fully safe without that now, Daddy.. We havent done daddy baby girl play in a bit.. or humiliation in a few days.. uggh fucking emotions it just wants to smile right now and be fine with the long distance but it's hard for me too you know?.. it's tough.. especially when I get stressed.. it's just tough.. -wipes it's eyes- I love you so much.. I need to be able to get kisses and snuggles all the time.. it's not the same through cam.. I can hold on for a bit until you see me , it thinks. Babe there is no way in fucking hell that I can wait till summer. I need you now. I swear I do.. This isnt just my period.. This is truth, raw emotion spilling out of what's been in it's conceious.. we can talk about this...well if we ever have the time.. which we never do.. God dam it.. i need to be happy.. I need to live the real life fantasy of this.. I need it now.. i've been waiting so long... In general to live this life more.. I need you irl to pull my hair, control me.. not let me get emotionally like this..walk me... I need it so damn bad.. :'( God... Please.. please show me my place irl... it's so tough on the both of us, equally tough I can tell you that.. Can we please talk about all this? I'll be damned if I make an irrational decision.. I love you so fucking much.. it hurts to not have even met you irl.. I love you and i'm just a physically needy person..

Master Eryn's fuck toy, mia baby..

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Journal 2-20-11

Dear Journal,
Mia is a desperate little fuck toy for Master's attention. Mia needs another really good cam session and lots of attention.. Maybe on like Tuesday or something else we can ca. Daddy is working all week basically till Thursday but maybe when he is doing modeling work on Tuesday or something he will make time for his desperate whore. It is desperate even just to be degraded and snuggled and petted even if it's not a dirty cam session. But mia needs dis. Mia needs it's hair pulled. To be made to suck Master's delicious toes ^///^ -giggles- Please, Daddy? Oh gosh.. it cannot wait to see your blog you make tonight, Daddykins. Missing you so muches, Daddy. Loves you so muches, Daddy :) Even Daddy baby girl cam time would be so great, Daddykins. Also ps: May you please please please humiliate your whore A LOT in tonights blog, Daddy? Your fuck toy thing will find some way to repay you, Master. -bows to his feet-

Love your precious dirty little fucking whore,

Master Eryns ,mia baby toy <3 

Quick Journal 2-16-11

Dear Journal,
Mia misses spending so much time with Daddy but hopefully mia will have some training days and play days and cuddly days soon and maybe even get to cum tomorrow. Mia's connection and love for Daddy is still strong but mia thinks we still need to cam a bit more etc to keep it stronger so it doesn't loosen one itsby bit. Mia loves you so much, Daddy...Oh god.. your hair.. your face.. your lips..Your smile.. your laugh... the way you love mia.. the control just everything.. Nigh nigh Daddykins.. Mia is in love with it's finacee <33

~Master Eryn's Slut, Mia